Saturday, April 23, 2011
1 month have pass. Things are still not the way i want it to be.
How long more can i stand?
What happen if things just won't be the way they are anymore?
Did you know that, even though it's just a little thing that you did, it would somehow make my day? That's how my smile comes around. What if one day you are no longer
around, will my smile just fade away, thus, having me to put on a fake front to everyone
cause i would not want them to worry?
So many people leaving. what happen if some will never come back again?
is it the final farewell? i don't want it to be. ):
must think of a solution to make them come back somehow or somewhat ):
everyone is busy planing for FD com'11.
hopefully our dearest seniors would be able to come back and help us.
We have not much time left.
Jiayou to Dingdongs. hopefully we won't be alone.
One ask me what phobia do you have?
i answered: having your love ones leaving you without a reason, being left alone and having a phobia of lighting and thunder.
One replied: But somehow, everyone will leave one day right? lighting and thunder is a nature i think, you won't be able to avoid it too,right?
i answered: yes, everyone will leave one day, but what if they have a choice whether to leave
or not. But what if they choose to leave without telling one a reason at all. Death is another thing. Ain't it great to have someone telling you that they will be there for you when it comes to lighting and thunder? i believe the outcome would be different too right?
One replied: yes it's great to have this one person that will always be there for you. As you know, there's always a reason behind everything. Belief that they have they reason for doing everything. maybe they did not wanted to leave, but under their circumstance, they need to leave somehow.
i answered: But won't it be better if they would just tell one the reason? thus, not having one kept in the dark, and i believe that it won't hurt that much compared to the other.
One replied: Just believe that there's always a reason for their doings (:
i realize that i have never sleep in peace during that 1 month.
i didn't know why, but i know that I've lost the senses or security.
Love, where are you when i need you the most?
imy. waiting for your return.?
It's funny how those wonderful flash back(s) came to your mind, and made you feel like it just happened yesterday. But you felt the same again, after realizing that those wonderful memories might never happen anymore.
No matter how many times I get hurt I won’t leave. Even if I have a hundred reasons to leave, I’ll always look for that one reason to fight.Labels: waiting for your return.
9:19 AM
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Dearest love,
im still loving you.
although i no longer know what you are thinking,
I pray that everything will be fine for you, hoping that you will stay healthy and happy.
I'll be there when you need me, im just a phone call away.
love, i miss you!
Our communication was once so strong, yet now getting a word out of you is so hard and tiring.
When you love someone you give everything without thinking twice.You deny the truth,you believe in lies,you cry over the things that hurt you but you still stay and say its okay.
8:30 PM
